Oh 2020.. I have so much hope for you.
I’m excited for this year, it’s definitely off to a better start that 2019 was. I was in a very dark, lonely place with all my autoimmune stuff. My flare ups had gotten worse and I had finally given up and went to a doctor. It was the best decision I could ever make.. but I was also scared of the answers I would get.. or wouldn’t.
2019 taught me a lot. In 2019 I figured out how strong I really am.. in the moments all I wanted to do was curse god, cry and lay in bed all day. I woke up at 5 am instead and cried through the pain of stretching my stiff body. 2019 taught me how to LOVE my body and really APPRECIATE what it can do for me. When you’re healthy you really take for granted everything your body does for you.. like walking to the kitchen without falling down. In 2019 I also realized I deserve to myself GRACE. I’m human and when I fail, it’s okay! Take one day at a time and eventually you’ll get to where you want to go.
2019 was a year of growth, a growth I didn’t know I needed. I still have a long road to go with whatever the hell is going on with me. But I can say i’m proud of where I am now.
I’m proud of myself.
2019 wasn’t all bad, so here are a few memories I’d like to keep.
My 29th birthday + tattoo
A few of the many forced selfies I made my family take with me. Love you guys!
This was also the year I focused on growing my youtube channel. I’m still figuring it out.. but i’m enjoying it while I do.
ohh our TIKTOK channel. It’s been a way of bringing our family together and making us laugh. sometimes I have to beg everyone to join.. but in the end we all end up laughing.
I’m sure there are more.. but I’ll leave you with these last few.
HAPPY NEW YEAR, FRIENDS!
I hope 2020 is good to you.